I’ve spent the past 24 hours worrying about something that was not real. I didn’t even try to shift my thinking to trusting in a different outcome, even though I recognized that I didn’t have all the information. I just “knew” my fear of what was happening was real. This is an example of how easy it is to slip into making up a story about the future that creates an ineffective present.
Yesterday my second cataract was removed. Last night, as I used that eye for the first time, my vision was foggy instead of clear. This was different than my experience with my first cataract surgery, so I couldn’t shake the thought that something was wrong. At the same time, I knew that my reaction to the blurriness was way premature – it was less than 12 hours after the surgery and before my 24-hour follow-up appointment with the doctor!
Disaster cloak hides reality
However, I was so wrapped up in my disaster cloak, I couldn’t shift my focus to trusting the process. Intellectually, I knew I would get the doctor’s opinion the next day. Intellectually, I knew that it takes time for the eye to settle down after surgery. Intellectually, I knew I was making stuff up and needed to relax and wait for the process to be completed.
However, my brain wasn’t listening. I focused on a comment the doctor made that I misinterpreted (partly from being super relaxed after anesthesia). I revamped this comment, amped up its meaning and fed my hysterical feeling that it would take months to fix it.
At the doctor’s office, I mentioned my concern. “You should have called because everything is totally normal.” I felt instant relief and then chagrin that I had let myself spend so much time in ineffective moping.
This afternoon, just after being embarrassed into remembering that I have the tools to shift these thoughts, I met with a client who has spent several months in a job that totally drains her energy and self-confidence. She has allowed a toxic work environment to prevent her mind from seeing any vision for the future. Her phrase was “I feel like I’m in prison.”
She is incredibly experienced and valued in her industry. She and her husband have financial stability so she doesn’t need to stay in the job. However, her mind has shut down from the negative input – both external and internal. This constant negative focus keeps her from seeing all the possibilities she has to change her situation. Her prison is self-made and she has the total power to open the cage door.
We both needed to remember, believe and practice consciously seeing our situations from an effective, enlightening, positive viewpoint. It’s this view that allows us to see expansive possibilities and strategies for any situation. One little mantra said with belief could have helped us – if we had just used it.
Think positive thoughts
Shift negative thoughts
Choose above-the-line
Focusing only on best case scenarios,
Gary
Thanks for sharing honestly about your cataracts. It is so easy to get discouraged when our bodies are aging.
I too had surgery, but I was not so lucky. I ended up with some complications and now it is my heart that is acting up. I’d love to discuss ways to accept what is happening with everyone saying, “Oh it will be ok, when eventually, it will not!”
Suzann, I’m sorry to hear about your health complications. I don’t want to just offer you some more false platitudes. However, there are a whole host of possibilities to focus your thoughts and energy upon. You know that what you focus your thoughts and energy on expands. You can focus on fear and the worst case scenario or on trust and the best case scenario. Energetically you can create another story instead of “eventually it will not” and focus on the fact that you are lucky you live in a country that has advanced western medicine with options to explore. You can focus on the fact that bringing positive, trusting energy and thought to any situation has a more powerful effect than negative, fearful thought. Positive thoughts create a different reaction in your body; cells expand rather than contract; positive, healthy endorphins are released in the body. Negative thoughts trigger adrenal hormones and your cells go into protective mode. So, there is much to be gained by shifting your thoughts on a moment by moment basis to positive, trusting, enlivening thoughts.